Nov 272005

“Too Far Down”

I’m down again
And I don’t know how to tell you
But maybe this time I can’t come back
Because I might be too far down

I wish for real
That I could turn it on and off
Like hot and cold and up and down
Because I’m down again

I’m too far down
I couldn’t begin to smile
Because I can’t even laugh or cry
Because I just can’t do it

If it was so easy to be happy
Why am I so down?
All I can do is sit and wonder if it’s going to end
Or if I should just go away forever

When I sit and think
I wish that I just could die
Or let someone else be happy
By setting my own self free

And you don’t want the emotion
Because the taste it leaves is for real
But nothing’s ever real until it’s gone
And I might be too far down

And is this just another thrown away
Or is this the end of the whole stupid road
But you wouldn’t want to know how I feel anyway
Because the darkest hole is at the end of the road

I’m down again
And I guess I’m not the only one who dreams
That there’s not any way to tell you
Because I might be too far down


I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who’ll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She’ll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She’ll hear me out
And won’t easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she’ll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who’ll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don’t want to be tied
To anyone’s strings
I’m carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I’m asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I’ll get away with it

Holy fucking shit!!!

Kate Bush has a new CD out! It is called Ariel. had a video of the new single “King of the Mountain”. I was on the site looking up other info helping one of the reps, and it didn’t quite hit me until I looked and put two and two together, then I went to Amazon and lo and behold! So this day is starting out fucking positive! I am going to have to buy the new cd for sure. Also I downloaded and listened to Hypnotized by SOAD yesterday and that rocked. I hope Kate Bush tours. I will deffinately go, I don’t care how much it will cost, and I will buy the shirt to go along with it too.

I hope she doesn’t decide to bring that guy home and fuck him. I will kick her out if she ever does.

I am so stupid. Stupid.

Current Music: david banner - really dont wanna go
 Posted by at 2:18 am