Aug 112008

So Karla and I are no more. She hasn’t talked to me in two weeks, so… I am upset over it, but the time was coming. We were fighting about little things often and the communication was getting less and less.

I am probably going to go on a road trip with Carol the last week of September to the first week of October. She is going to go visit her prison boyfriend and I am going to go with her on the road trip to keep her company. I hope I have enough money to go by then. I need to scrimp and save the next couple of pay checks and I am thinking about extending my loan out for my car to help pay. I won’t need much money, just to help for gas and food and tourist type of shit. She is taking care of lodging and the car rental. I do need to get a camera, so that is one major expense. I am going to get the Olympus 1030sw. Hopefully soon.

I am also going to get a Dell laptop too through the employee purchase program. Once I have those I will be good to go.

Pictures will come when I can get pictures going. The quality on my blackberry just doesn’t do it any justice.

I have been gauging out my ears. I started out with a 16 gauge and today I put in 8. I am going to keep them in for about a month before going up to 6.

Mood : amusedamused
Tv : American Dad
 Posted by at 12:27 am
May 232008

I know it has been a long time since I have written in this thing. I have been sick and worked a few over nights over the weekend and haven’t felt like doing shit. I have been really lazy lately as well. So that is my bullshit excuse.

I came down with the Florida spring flu, a lot of people at work got it and I was the recipient of it as well, to top it off I had to work overnights during the heat of this piece of shit sickness so I had to deal with being really tired and messing up my entire sleep cycle as well. I am still not 100% back in health or in my sleep cycle either. Lots of staying up till like 8 around here.

I think I can be back in shape with my finances by the end of June. I have an extra pay check coming and I should be getting a bit extra for working Memorial Day as well. Oh also my lease is up next month and it is actually going down. Not by much, $10 a month, but it is a lot better than going up. I was expecting it to go up another $20 or more this year. And when I sign my lease they are going to give me $100 so I am stoked about that. I will hopefully be back on track. I just need to keep it up and save and get a nice bit of cousin in there.

Last night the power cord on my laptop died. The cable started separating from the plug. I called Dell not knowing if I still have my warrantee or not, it expired last year but they considered it a safety concern and are replacing it at no charge. I lucked out. I didn’t want to buy a new one. It should be getting to me by Monday.

Karla and I have been fighting lately. It is over something stupid but yet it is serious enough for her that she is willing to break up with me over it if I peruse it anymore. Fucking sucks. I don’/t understand at all. Basically I want to do video conference with her but she refuses. She doesn’t want to be on video at all. That is it. I don’t understand why not.

 Posted by at 1:04 am
Apr 112008

Well Karla and I talked about the picture thing last night. she did send me pictures. I didn’t get them all yet, but they are in the process. Hopefully things work out. I don’t know how much longer I am going to continue to cross post to LJ. It just doesnt’ seem like it is worth it anymore.

I am a lot closer to doing the video project. I ordered the cables I needed and I also ordered the pants and hat and am going to do the aprons and coats soon. That is going to be another $100. I thought about buying another camcorder in the near future and doing that for a static close up shot. One thing that I thought would be hard to do is switching between a mid shot to a close up shot. I will do a couple of dry runs this week to see how well it goes once I get the cables in. I have a chef coat from The Floyd Hill Grill that I will use for those dry runs. Things I need to do is put up the lights, do some clean up, get my fridge cleaned, and stuff back up and put the paint away. Oh, I also need to put the new burner drip pans on this week too. Oh I also need to get a new cutting board too. I might stop by a restaraunt supply store and cost those. Ebay has those for $25 including shipping.

Need to rehome… (Tampa)
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Date: 2008-04-11, 11:02PM EDT

Please help! After two long years of being on a waiting list for a ferret, we have been notified by breed rescue that, at long last, our number has come up and … WE ARE HAVING A FERRET!

We must get rid of our children IMMEDIATELY because we just know how time consuming our new little ferret is going to be and it just wouldn’t be fair to the children. Since our little ferret will be arriving on Monday we MUST place the children up for adoption this weekend!

They are described as:
One male — his name is Billy, Caucasian (English/Irish mix), light blonde hair, blue eyes. Four years old. Excellent disposition. He doesn’t bite. Temperament tested. Does have problems with peeing directly in the toilet. Has had chicken Pox and is current on all shots. Tonsils have already been removed. Tommy eats everything, is very clean, house trained and gets along well with others. Does not run with scissors and with a little training he should be able to read soon.

One female — her name is Mandy, Caucasian (English/Irish mix), strawberry blonde hair, green eyes quite freckled. Two years old. Can be surly at times. Non-biter, thumb sucker. Has been temperament tested but needs a little attitude adjusting occasionally. She is current on all shots, tonsils out, and is very healthy and can be affectionate. Gets along well with other little girls and little boys but does not like to share her toys and therefore would do best in a one child household. She is a very quick learner and is currently working on her house training. Shouldn’t take long at all.

We really do LOVE our children so much and want to do what’s right for them. That is why we contacted a rescue group. But we simply can no longer keep them. Also, we are afraid that they may hurt our new ferret.

I hope you understand that ours is a UNIQUE situation and we have a real emergency here! They MUST be placed into your rescue by Sunday night at the latest or we will be forced to drop them off at the orphanage or along some dark, country road. Our priority now has to be our new FERRET.

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 Posted by at 11:50 pm
Apr 092008

So I am a bit frustrated and sad and disapointed and depressed all at the same time. The last time I asked Karla to send pictures of herself was at the begining or middle of March. When I asked her they were always met with tommorow, I dont look good now or I am too tired or something along those lines. So I finally gave up asking her and have been refraining asking her since thinking that when she is ready to send she will. Well, I can’t say she hasn’t sent pictures, because she has, but those pictures were of things or her cat. None of her.

Durring this time I have sent her pictures of myself. The most recent were yesterday. I don’t know if she has even recieved them because she doesn’t say she gets them, I asked her the other day about it and she said that she forgets to turn it on, or that she starts to download them but gets off teh computer before she completely downloads and has to start over. That issue I resolved by showing her how to pause the download.

I do know that she is shy when it comes to taking pictures so I do keep that in mind, but I have also expressed how much I love getting pictures from her.

I just don’t know what to do. Requesting pictures doesnt’ work, because it is always tommorow or I forgot or I am ugly or fat or eyes are puffy or some otehr excuse. I have talked to her about it in the past. It just makes me feel depressed and unloved and uncared for. I thought that by stoping asking would make her wonder why I don’t ask for pictures anymore, but she never asks that and never volenteers to take pictures of herself. Maybe if I stop sending her pictures she will ask me why I have stopped sending. I don’t like playing these stupid little games, but being open and honest about it has failed.

And at the same time I am miserable inside.

Current Music: Serj Tankian - Greatefully Disapeared
 Posted by at 12:31 am
Mar 112008

So I have decided to stop watching SNL. The last three weeks have been Oboma bashing and Hillary supporting political bullshit. I can understand one week anti Obama and another week anti Hillary, but they are obviously one sideed about it and going for the neo-con bullshit that Hillary is. it was bad enough that they made fun of Kucinich as much as they did, but I understood it because he was not popular and easy to make fun of. When I got home on Sunday I started watching the latest and I couldn’t even finish the opening segment. I had to shut off the TV, delete the recording, and remove SNL from my scheduled recordings from the DVR. No more. They aren’t even funny anymore, I don’t know why I even bother watching SNL.

The other day I made some vegan mac and cheeze, so yummy! I have been playing out making things for the camera. I have been trying to be instructional and informative and giving extra info the entire time for dry runs for when I am actually doing it for real once I have everything set for production. I need to get off my lazy ass and actually get the rest of the kitchen done soon.

Four of my items sold on E-bay. Three of them for a penny a piece, not much money but at least I am getting rid of junk. I have a few more things I want to put up there. I doubt I will get any money for them, but you never know. I have been surprised in the past what people will buy. I almost want to go to he thrift store and buy junk and sell it.

It seems like Karla talks to me less and less anymore. I don’t know what is going on. Today we talked for about 30 minutes at the most. I don’t understand it.

I finally got UMA to work with my home router on my blackberry. I had opened up the ports and did port forwarding and the whole nine yards. I had even forwarded the ports for ipsecpassthrough and nothing. Calling tmo was not much help either, I did all the troubleshooting they would have me do already. Last night I went through my router again, and I found some settings in a weird spot and one of those was allow ipsec so I checked it and after the router rebooted I was on UMA for the rest of the time. So hopefully that fixed it. Hopefully.

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 Posted by at 12:17 am
Feb 202008

So I didn’t get the loan. They wanted collateral and I don’t have any so that went to shit.

I wasn’t expecting it anyway, but it would have been nice to have.

I have been listening to Govinda at work the last few days. I know I have talked about them before, but dammit I love it! Great stuff! Go here and listen to Charming the Serpent! It is one of my favorites!

Karla hasn’t mailed me again today. I am going to let her sit and sulk until she decides to write me back. Whenever that is going to be.

This entry sucks. I know it does. Tell me it sucks!

Current Music: Govinda
 Posted by at 12:17 am
Feb 182008

Last night I decided to not be lazy and switch out to my old power supply. Didn’t post. I am a bit miffed. Server is down until I can get a new trinity. So frustrating.

I am trying to decide whether to buy the Ikeyplus or a brand new camcorder all together with an audio jack. The Ikey plus I can get for around $150, the Camcorder I am thinking about I can get for $250. I am not sure which way to go on this one yet.

I haven’t talked to Karla today. I received no e-mails from her. I am going to let her sit and sulk for a while. I might be getting a $5000 loan. I will find out tomorrow when I call back to the place. It sure would be nice. Wish me luck!

Current Music: Govinda - Blessed
 Posted by at 11:56 pm
Feb 172008

I wrote the first rough draft for the first episode for my video project. I am going to make something quick and easy my first time around to help make things easy for me to iron out the rough spots. I have a long way to go before that happens, but I am on my way. I know what I am going to use to record the audio. I found this thing called an Ikey plus that is going to work perfectly I hope.

Karla and I are still fighting. The last thing she sent to me was that she couldn’t be expected to wait for me to finish painting, that would be crazy, so I responded to her that I waited sometimes for an hour and a half for her to come online so I must be crazy. She hasn’t responded back and that was a couple of hours ago. It is so frustrating.

A nice yummy thread about the meat industry! It talks about Fast Food Nation and gets into how the animals and workers are treated like shit and getting hurt. The comments thread got into animal abuses and vegetarianism a bit. I got into it here and there too. people are so ignant sometimes. Of course I powned here and there since I am a self righteous holier than thou vegan 😉

Current Music: Govinda - Synthetic Beauty
 Posted by at 11:14 pm
Feb 162008

Karla is mad at me again. I didn’t pay any attention to her on valentines day, even though I sent her several messages on IM and she never came on line any time she messaged me back through email and I waited 30 minute and hour long blocks for her to come online. Admittadly I did spend most of the day painting, and so I wasn’t on the computer the entire time I was awake. However if she is going to show up offline when she is on the computer then who’s fault is that? I stayed online the entire time and none of her messages came through chat, always e-mail. This is getting ridiculous sometimes.

I was really sore on Friday from all the painting. Especially my back. I have a lot more work to do still. I need to do the remainder of the wall against the pantry area and do some more cleaning like the refrigerator and put everything back. Then I need to install the lights.

I decided yesterday to get rid of my second line (I can’t do that till June or suffer a $200 early cancellation fee) but I did kill the sidekick services and put my SK3 on ebay. I should get at least $100 for that.

Great we are fighting now. I wasn’t available for her because I was painting. So I am unromantic.

Current Music: Skinny Puppy
 Posted by at 9:48 pm
Jan 292008

Well the 20 minutes that I thought it would take to replace my power supply has turned into a big mess. After getting it all installed it wouldn’t post. So I checked all connections, same. REmoved the CD and drive cables same. Did some more fumbing around and same. I was really tired so I went to bed. I didn’t wake up in the mood to mess with it so it is still there. When I get home tonight I need to strip it down to the trinity and see if it will post then. Then I will go from there to see what is fucked up. On top of that the nic in my laptop isn’t setting to gigabit, I uninstalled that and reinstalled and same. I even have it manually set to use gigabit full duplex and same.

I voted today. I voted for Kucinich. currently there are 97% of the polls reporting and he has 9,459 votes even though he annouced he is out of the race. I think that is pretty decent numbers for a man who the media wouldn’t give him a chance.

I am sad. I can’t say why just yet, but if I am thinking what I am thinking then it is going to be bad news. Bad bad news.

Current Music: Combichrist - Happy Fucking Birthday
 Posted by at 11:52 pm