New years eve I slept most of the day. I couldn’t decide what I wanted to do so I ended up going to Chilis, eating a black bean burger (so yum!) and drinking a couple of beers. As I was sitting there in the booth by my self I felt really sad and depressed. There I was the only asshole in the place by myself. Every one else was surrounded by friends, family, and loved ones. I felt pretty worthless. I can usually carry on with my life feeling 1/2 way ok about being a loner, but for some reason last night got to me. I don’t know why. I felt like I was in the middle of MC 900 ft Jesus’ New Years Eve song. I then wanted some chocolate to finish off the night and some more beer so I went to Publix and they had closed early. So I decided fuck it and just went home to be a loser and watch TV.
Jan 1 I hung out with Carol and Oliver and his sister. We went and saw Bedtime Stories which was actually pretty good for a Disney flick. It is hard to describe the movie without explaining it all. Netflix’s description is wrong, Imdb is too short and I am too lazy to explain.
Today was the day of throwing away a lot of money (paying rent) and going grocery shopping. It seemed like there were a lot more people out and not enough people to take the demand. Two people at the bank to handle the inside and drive through. Two people at CompUSA manning the registers, one only taking credit and debit, not very many people at Target. Only one person at Amscot and a lot of people waiting there. Oh and when I walked out of Amscot I tripped and fell and twisted my ankle and it has been hurting all day today too. So it has been a great day for me today.
I haven’t been getting the sleep I have needed either. Less than 4 hours of sleep every night the last few days. I thought I could get home in time today to nap before work, and it was too close to do so. I am going to go home, drink a bit of rum and fall right asleep. I am so ready to now.