Mar 122016

Sometimes my job frustrates me to no end. There is a group we support that seems to be the laziest group. They are also very understaffed, they can go home whenever they want, and we end up taking the wrath for that. Today I got a call from someone who called yesterday to have his phone provisioned and the ticket wasn’t even touched today. The group left around noon, and I got to hear the brunt. I am still not happy about it and earlier I was pretty pissed, not only the way that asshole treated me but also because of the ongoing lack of action from the group we support. I also have a funny feeling that even though there was nothing I could do, this is going to end up coming back to me for some reason.

I have a feeling that a rum and coke is in my near future.

I am really concerned with what has happened in this country. The grand canyon divide that has happened. I think it started with Bush jr, but it very well could have started with Reagan. The 24 hour news media has done nothing but fuel this divide for ratings and views. Sensationalism sells but causes discontent and divide. Fox news and their anti obama rhetoric has put jet fuel on top of this ever growing fire, and now we have Trump pouring more gasoline on top. His rallies have gotten increasingly more violent and we have people getting punched, shoved and beaten. He fuels the mob with his words saying shit like he would punch them himself, and in the past we would have taken care of this other ways, and that he would pay people their court costs if they cause violence. People are starting to get tired of it and today was a big counter protest in Chicago. I have a feeling this is going to get bigger and bigger and we are going to start having riots in the streets. I don’t know what is going to happen, but I am more afraid and more wanting to move out of country. If Trump becomes president, this country will be a disaster.

Current Music: The Young Turks
Mood : happyaggravated
Music : The Young Turks
 Posted by at 12:26 am
Jan 242009

It has been so long. Way too long. I fucking suck.

It was a great day in history on Tuesday when Obama got sworn in. I wish the actual swearing in part didn’t get fucked up. Any reason for the republican party to delegitimize Obama will cause bullshit quarrels over non issues. Limbaugh has already said he wants Obama to fail. I don’t think he could fail as much as bush did no matter how hard he tried. Bush spent 34% of his time on vacation. I wish I could do that. Obama seems to be on a good track so far. We will see. It was amazing how many people showed up for it. 1.8 million and that is because they couldn’t handle any more on the lawn. Imagine how many people were outside or elsewhere.

I took the day off to watch the inaugural. It was great watching it on HD. After I went to Carol’s and then went out and celebrated with her and one of her friends. We drove around several places looking for someplace to eat and finally decided on Thai.

On Wed we went over to Carol’s Friends house and watched the top chef show and we ate at carrabas, which really sucked. Yesterday was just a lazy do nothing stay inside because it is too fucking cold day.

Today was a I shouldn’t have gone in to work because it fucking sucked and I am reminded why people fucking suck day. I told a sub I couldn’t get anyone out any sooner for them two months ago and they decided recently to complain about it. Well I got written up for it and they didn’t like the comments I put in the account either because they were too emotional or something so they made me remove them as well. Fucking shit. I get yelled at for doing my job, I am here to make decisions and I get fucked for making them. I have no support from management, none at all. Anytime I get something written about me that goes to office of president I get yelled at about it whether it was following policy or not and no one has my back in this fucking place. I am so fucking sick of it. It isn’t right. It isn’t right at all. I am here to do a job and it feels like dammed if I do or dammed if I don’t. If I would have tried to get someone out earlier for her I would have been yelled at for that as well. I don’t know what to do except try to not get people to complain about me, which is impossible to do since it is going to happen in the position that I am in. I fucking hate people. Fucking assholes.

My brain feels like it is going to explode because of this shit.

Oh and to top it off, I thought I met someone new. We had lunch last Friday? Were supposed to meet up at the garden on Tue for the inauguration, find out she had too much paperwork to do at work and couldn’t make it, and we were supposed to also go out on Thursday, on Wed she let me know that she had other plans she forgot about. I can understand. Well today I messaged her to see how she was doing and nothing. No reply. So now I don’t know what to think.

I am a fucking loser nobody I guess.

Oh and to top it off I let this domain expire, and had to pay another year and wait for it to complete the renewal. At least it expired today and no one grabbed it…

Mood : happydepressed
Music : Godflesh
Tv : How it's made
 Posted by at 12:25 am
Nov 232008

I am sure that all of you have seen the wonderful turkey pardoning and then murdering oh it is ok interview that Sarah Palin the wonderful wanna be republican leader. Well I have been thinking about it. I think that she totally set up the entire thing and knew the news media would be talking about it for a couple of cycles. I think that she deep down is an attention seeker and has found another way to do it. You have to remember that this is someone who was a beauty pageant second placer, and then a sports caster for a while. I don’t think that those worked out for her so her next step was politics and has been slowly working up her way into the ladder. She has been seeking this vice president gig for a year or so now and now that she has lost she is still seeking out that attention she so desperately needs. I saw it with my step brother. He craved attention good or bad. He went so far as to try to start a grocery store on fire and limping into a fast food restaurant saying he was hit by a car only to leave before the paramedics and cops showed up.

The most disturbing part about the video is the fact that they are murdering these turkeys right in front of other live turkeys. I think it is torture. Imagine being in a cage with hundreds of other people and watching your fellow beings being beheaded and bleed out. Now you have to understand that even though I am vegan I am not squeamish. I was a chef for 11 years and part of my training was going to a lamb and cow slaughterhouse, so I have seen it all, and I know how animals are murdered for food.

I am feeling a little bit better emotionally. I am still a bit down. Still worried about money. Still frustrated over asshole customers. People demanding things that we just can’t do and then threatening to go to my supervisors supervisor because I can’t meet their asshole demands. So frustrating. So very frustrating.

Mood : happygrumpy
Music : Weird Al videos on youtube
 Posted by at 12:23 am
Nov 102008

Special Comment: The Passage of Prop 8
Posted: Monday, November 10, 2008 9:01 PM by Countdown
Filed Under: Special Comment

Finally tonight as promised, a Special Comment on the passage, last week, of Proposition Eight in California, which rescinded the right of same-sex couples to marry, and tilted the balance on this issue, from coast to coast.

Some parameters, as preface. This isn’t about yelling, and this isn’t about politics, and this isn’t really just about Prop-8. And I don’t have a personal investment in this: I’m not gay, I had to strain to think of one member of even my very extended family who is, I have no personal stories of close friends or colleagues fighting the prejudice that still pervades their lives.

And yet to me this vote is horrible. Horrible. Because this isn’t about yelling, and this isn’t about politics.

This is about the… human heart, and if that sounds corny, so be it.

If you voted for this Proposition or support those who did or the sentiment they expressed, I have some questions, because, truly, I do not… understand. Why does this matter to you? What is it to you? In a time of impermanence and fly-by-night relationships, these people over here want the same chance at permanence and happiness that is your option. They don’t want to deny you yours. They don’t want to take anything away from you. They want what you want — a chance to be a little less alone in the world.

Only now you are saying to them — no. You can’t have it on these terms. Maybe something similar. If they behave. If they don’t cause too much trouble. You’ll even give them all the same legal rights — even as you’re taking away the legal right, which they already had. A world around them, still anchored in love and marriage, and you are saying, no, you can’t marry. What if somebody passed a law that said you couldn’t marry?

I keep hearing this term “re-defining” marriage.

If this country hadn’t re-defined marriage, black people still couldn’t marry white people. Sixteen states had laws on the books which made that illegal… in 1967. 1967.

The parents of the President-Elect of the United States couldn’t have married in nearly one third of the states of the country their son grew up to lead. But it’s worse than that. If this country had not “re-defined” marriage, some black people still couldn’t marry…black people. It is one of the most overlooked and cruelest parts of our sad story of slavery. Marriages were not legally recognized, if the people were slaves. Since slaves were property, they could not legally be husband and wife, or mother and child. Their marriage vows were different: not “Until Death, Do You Part,” but “Until Death or Distance, Do You Part.” Marriages among slaves were not legally recognized.

You know, just like marriages today in California are not legally recognized, if the people are… gay.

And uncountable in our history are the number of men and women, forced by society into marrying the opposite sex, in sham marriages, or marriages of convenience, or just marriages of not knowing — centuries of men and women who have lived their lives in shame and unhappiness, and who have, through a lie to themselves or others, broken countless other lives, of spouses and children… All because we said a man couldn’t marry another man, or a woman couldn’t marry another woman. The sanctity of marriage. How many marriages like that have there been and how on earth do they increase the “sanctity” of marriage rather than render the term, meaningless?

What is this, to you? Nobody is asking you to embrace their expression of love. But don’t you, as human beings, have to embrace… that love? The world is barren enough.

It is stacked against love, and against hope, and against those very few and precious emotions that enable us to go forward. Your marriage only stands a 50-50 chance of lasting, no matter how much you feel and how hard you work.

And here are people overjoyed at the prospect of just that chance, and that work, just for the hope of having that feeling. With so much hate in the world, with so much meaningless division, and people pitted against people for no good reason, this is what your religion tells you to do? With your experience of life and this world and all its sadnesses, this is what your conscience tells you to do?

With your knowledge that life, with endless vigor, seems to tilt the playing field on which we all live, in favor of unhappiness and hate… this is what your heart tells you to do? You want to sanctify marriage? You want to honor your God and the universal love you believe he represents? Then Spread happiness — this tiny, symbolic, semantical grain of happiness — share it with all those who seek it. Quote me anything from your religious leader or book of choice telling you to stand against this. And then tell me how you can believe both that statement and another statement, another one which reads only “do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”

You are asked now, by your country, and perhaps by your creator, to stand on one side or another. You are asked now to stand, not on a question of politics, not on a question of religion, not on a question of gay or straight. You are asked now to stand, on a question of…love. All you need do is stand, and let the tiny ember of love meet its own fate. You don’t have to help it, you don’t have it applaud it, you don’t have to fight for it. Just don’t put it out. Just don’t extinguish it. Because while it may at first look like that love is between two people you don’t know and you don’t understand and maybe you don’t even want to know…It is, in fact, the ember of your love, for your fellow **person…

Just because this is the only world we have. And the other guy counts, too.

This is the second time in ten days I find myself concluding by turning to, of all things, the closing plea for mercy by Clarence Darrow in a murder trial.

But what he said, fits what is really at the heart of this:

“I was reading last night of the aspiration of the old Persian poet, Omar-Khayyam,” he told the judge.

“It appealed to me as the highest that I can vision. I wish it was in my heart, and I wish it was in the hearts of all:

“So I be written in the Book of Love;

“I do not care about that Book above.

“Erase my name, or write it as you will,

“So I be written in the Book of Love.”

Good night, and good luck.

Mood : sicksick
Tv : Countdown
 Posted by at 10:18 pm
Nov 082008


What can I say?

I got this!

I got this!

Obama won, and he won with a mandate! This country is moving more left, which is a good thing. Being under the rule of the neo-cons for so long has done nothing but damaged this country and her reputation. The country spoke, the world spoke. We are going to earn our reputation back.

The below map shows what counties shifted more democrat over the last election. It is a true indicator that the country as a whole is progressing. There are only a few areas that were redder, which are the hillbilly hick parts of the nation and are to be expected anyway.

It is a blue world after all!

It is a blue world after all!

Obama definitely got the Latin and the black vote out, by the failures of the bigot amendments in California, Arizona, and Florida you can tell that. The black and Latin vote tends to be a lot more conservative when it comes to that kind of things but progressive when it comes to other issues. This is again a general observation. I think that this is a step in the right direction with a mutt for a president (His words, not mine). It will take time.

I am fighting with my mom and younger sister over this. What the Mormon church has done is wrong, it isn’t their place. It isn’t like there are gay men in sets of two knocking on people’s doors and trying to convert people to gayism or anything.

In other news I am completely fucked. I went to the bank today to get money to pay bills and the bank decided to take my money, apply it to the overdraft, and then close my account. So I am fucked for a bit. I ended up having to take out some money out of my 401(k) to be able to pay for the bills I need to pay. I then killed direct deposit to my now extinct checking account and applied it all to my savings. Hopefully it all goes to savings this next check. I have rent to pay.

Anyway, I think I will be fine, but I don’t know how I am going to get gas money between now and when the check clears. Also I have a concert I was going to go to on Monday, looks like I won’t be going to that. It sucks because the ticket is already bought but I don’t have the money to pay for the ticket.

On a brighter note the company gave out the $25 gift certificates to Publix, so at least I can get food and TP.

Mood : sicksick
Music :
 Posted by at 1:41 am
Nov 042008

So in less than 24 hours we will know who the next president will be. As you all know I voted for Obama. After 8 years of shrub and almost 30 years of a republican presidency the country has become the second world power that it is now. Republican ideas of trickle down economics and war mongering and hiring people that you would have a beer with has brought us into a state of depression and being the laughing stock of the world. I hope Obama becomes president. We need someone in there who is smart, speaks eloquently, and knows about the laws, especially when it comes to constitutional law.

There are several sites up where the world votes for the US president, and those online polls had Obama winning by a landslide. It shows that the world needs this as much as we do. Bush has been an embarrassment to us, and McCain/Palin (Especially Palin) would be that as well, especially her phone conversation to who she thought was the French President.

All the polls are saying that Barack is going to win by a landslide and that both excites me and worries me. It worries me because people are going to be overconfident and figure that they don’t need to vote. If enough people feel this way then the polls are going to be meaningless.

I guess we will be finding out in less than 24 hours. Hopefully.

Hopefully he is able to turn this country around and make it progress forward again. Hopefully something like the below picture is reality in around 2050.

Mount Rushmore in 2050

Go Barack!

Mood : happyworried
Tv : Colbert Report
 Posted by at 1:45 am
Nov 012008

On Wednesday I went to see Bill Clinton and Barack Obama in
Kissimmee, FL. The event didn’t start until 11pm. For something that started so late on a work and school night 35,000 people showed up for it. Before they showed up for their talks there were a few speakers before hand. One of them being Jimmy Smits.

Jimmy was really good because he motivated the Latin crowd and he said that he based his West Wing character Matthew Santos on a not very known Illinois senator named Barack Obama. He even said that Santos isn’t here right now but if he was he would say this, and also used some lines from The West Wing as well. It was pretty cool!!

Bill and Barack were great! It was great for Bill to talk about the presidential decisions that Barack has already made with picking Biden and the economic crisis. He gave a little anecdote about it, which has been all over the news.

Every single fucking call I have gotten after my lunch has been stupid questions where the answer to them are very easily accessible in a database we created for them to look up the answers themselves.

Mood : annoyedannoyed
Tv : Countdown
 Posted by at 12:40 am
Oct 262008

So I posted some opposition to California’s prop 8 on my face book, and said fuck the mormons, and my little sister and mom decided to take that personal saying that I was saying hateful things and blah blah. My youngest even removed me from her friends list. It didn’t surprise me. They are so narrow minded and so sensitive to any criticism towards their organization (the mormon church) that they get crazy over that kind of shit. This is coming from an organization which is constantly prosecuted themselves and had this same type of prosecution when they were into polygamy.

Not much has been going on with me lately. I am just watching the polls and hoping that they are right. I know Obama isn’t the best person for the job, but he is a lot better than McSame and from hearing him speak at the rallies and on TV I am more and more inspired that he will do a good job. We will (hopefully) see in a few months when he is in office and has had a chance to fit into his job and starts to get things done.

I think it would be so cool if he had his inaugural address on the steps of the Lincoln Memorial right where MLK jr had his I have a Dream speech.

Tv : Rachel Maddow
 Posted by at 2:52 am
Oct 232008

There are no real or fake parts of this country. We are not separated by the pro-America and anti-America parts of this nation – we all love this country, no matter where we live or where we come from. There are patriots who supported this war in Iraq and patriots who opposed it; patriots who believe in Democratic policies and those who believe in Republican policies. The men and women from Virginia and all across America who serve on our battlefields may be Democrats and Republicans and Independents, but they have fought together and bled together and some died together under the same proud flag. They have not served a Red America or a Blue America – they have served the United States of America.

We have always been at our best when we’ve had leadership that called us to look past our differences and come together as one nation, as one people; leadership that rallied this entire country to a common purpose – to a higher purpose. And I am running for President of the United States of America because that is the country we need to be right now.

This country and the dream it represents are being tested in a way that we haven’t seen in nearly a century. And future generations will judge ours by how we respond to this test. Will they say that this was a time when America lost its way and its purpose? When we allowed the same divisions and fear tactics and our own petty differences to plunge this country into a dark and painful recession?

Or will they say that this was another one of those moments when America overcame? When we battled back from adversity by recognizing that common stake that we have in each other’s success?

This is one of those moments. I realize you’re cynical and fed up with politics. I understand that you’re disappointed and even angry with your leaders. You have every right to be. But despite all of this, I ask of you what’s been asked of the American people in times of trial and turmoil throughout our history. I ask you to believe – to believe in yourselves, in each other, and in the future we can build together.

Tv : Rachel Maddow
 Posted by at 11:32 am