May 012016

Ok, so a lot more time that I wanted went by.. I did get a video in the can, but that is about the extent of it. I don’t know why I let my weekends slip by on me like that. I still need to put together Computron. I have a couple holes to drill still, and then assembly.

I really need to get more videos done, I have a few I need to edit as well, I have been doing them in a much slower pace than I have wanted to, all because I feel disappointed that I have had so little viewers and feedback. It seems like every project I have done has been a failure. This one included, even though it has been slightly better than others. I get a couple of likes but no shares on the posts. Very little comments in general. My biggest amount of feedback is instagram, least is facebook, and now with facebook starting to fuck with instagram timelines, I have a feeling that instagram feedback is going to drop like a rock. I just wish I got a bit more love, especially from my friends.

Speaking of friends, I lost another one. She decided her god was more important than our friendship. I needed her to go with me to the Bernie rally and even said it was important, but that didn’t phase her. I was willing to miss work for it, but to her church was more important. Really disappointing, especially since we were friends for 15 years. There are 52 weeks out of the year, she could have missed church one week. It makes me a stronger atheist, that is for sure.

This is taking me longer to write than I intended it to. I really need to get back in the habit. I really do. I guess I will get this posted because I am a loser like that.

Nov 122011

Well it has been a while since I have updated hasn’t it?

I have had the last 4 days off. Friday 11/11/11 was a federal holiday and so I took Turs off as well to make it a mini vacation. I had plans of getting a lot of things done, but didn’t get anything done at all. The rest was nice, but I needed to work on the house.

I just now found out that there is a MYtouch slide 4g. It has been out since July. I am behind the times. Fucking T-Mobile wants cash upfront, and no more partial months shit. Fuckers. So I need to come up with $275 for the phone.

Anyway. Things have started to get really cold here in Oklahoma. I don’t know how I am going to survive when it gets colder and starts to snow.

Oklahoma has been having a lot of earthquakes recently. It is really weird. I have never experienced an earthquake before and never heard of Oklahoma having any either. There was a 5.6 that I felt a week or so ago. I can mark that off my bucket list I guess. I have seen tornadoes, been through hurricaines, blizzards, ice storms, hail storms, 50+ days of 100+ degree tempatures and no rain, and earthquakes.

The kitties are getting along better and better. They have been playing with each other a lot lately, chasing each other around and stuff. Soon they will be best friends. I ahve been working on the toilet training with them. I am in the final stages of it. I have a metal pan in the toilet and have been working on getting them to use it in there. There have been a few times where it hasn’t been in the pan, but I think they are starting to warm up to it. I bought some litter that is suppsoed to be good for training kitties, called cat attract and once I know they are using the pan 100% I will replace it with the septic safe stuff and then start the process of slowly opening a hole in the pan until they are used to sitting on the seat. This has been the dificult process thus far because the pan and area is so small and one of them doesnt ‘understand it fully yet. They are such sweeties and so gentle. They are still a bit skiddish though. That will take some time though I think.





The other day Tammy and I went to the cake wrecks book signing thing. It was fun. I think that Tammy enjoyed it and was suprised at some of the cakes. She hasn’t been to the site yet, so all the cakes were new to her. It got her out of the house and stuff. We also went to the Whole Paycheck as well and I wish it wasn’t so far away because I would be going there instead of the Norman places if I could for my groceries. They have a much bigger selection and they have a deli as well. I wish that Natural Grocers put in a deli. It makes me sad that they didn’t.

 Posted by at 9:20 pm
Feb 122011

Ok so it has been a long time. I am a fucking asshole I know. so anyway. Big news. Big news.

I am moving back to Oklahoma next month.

I know. It sucks. I don’t want to move. It is a family thing, so I need to move. Dady needs help so I am going back to help him. I turned in my notice on Wed at work. Gave them a month to replace me. That was nice of me to give them so much notice. I have been working on the details and planning and stuff and packing. I have been packing as well. I hope I get it all done. I have a bit over a month to get everything all packed up and stuff.

I also bought a new Nas

I named him Andre. I love it. Quick and holds a lot. Did I mention it was fast?? It is. I moved all my music and pictures on it and put my external drives on it and have been working on putting my back up / messed up drives on it as well. Right now I am cataloging pictures and will need to start going through and cleaning it up then organising , then moving more data on it from old drives, clean and organise until all peachy keen. This will probably be an ongoing thing that will take 6 months to a year.

My friends Kim and Tammy are coming down in March to help me move and vacation and drive back up with me. I am thinking of taking them direct from the airport to Key West for a day and a half. Should be fun.

Mood : happyweird
Music : bagpipe music
Tv : Bay News 9
 Posted by at 10:22 pm
Jan 052011

Ok, I have been back from vacation for a few days now. I guess I should talk about it. (It only took me a month to post…)

On Sunday I woke up early and flew into Denver. I found myself a little bar in the concourse and had a Fat Tire from draft. It was so good. I savoured every bit of that beer. I miss it and wish it was available here.

I got into Oklahoma by about 5pm or so. Dad took me to his favourite Mexican restaurant and we had some food. After that we went home and I unpacked and tried to stay warm in that house. It is such a big house that it would cost $800 a month to heat, so he uses oil heaters to keep the bedroom warm and only warms it when he gets home, so it is cold and takes a while to rewarm.

The next day I hung out with my dad for a while and then headed up to visit Tammy for a while. It was good seeing her again and she was in the process of moving to her new home, so I helped her with that and getting things in order.

On Tuesday I helped my dad get his TV hooked up and stuff and relaxed and stuff.

On Wednesday I headed up to Tammy’s house and hung out with her. Sat in her car as she ran her fivety billion errands and stuff then ate at Olive Garden. I ended up staying the night there but sleeping on her floor, and then the next day spent helping her with her tree and arranging things and watching her clean. We went out to eat and ate at PF Changs. We didn’t know we were going to eat there but ended up there. At first we were going to eat at a little Thai place in down town OKC but that place turned out to be nasty, so then we were on the hunt for some place different and two hours later we were there.

On Friday I hung out with my dad and helped him shop for stuff and ate at Mamavicas again. As well as went to see my grandma at the nursing home. It was sad to see her there and to know that she is pretty much a living breathing shell.

Saturday I spent time looking through grandmas home and taking pictures of it.

On Monday I drove around with my dad while he was working and saw a bit of OKC. After he was done I headed up to Tammy’s house and we went out to the movies at the Warren Theatre and sat in the balcony and saw a movie called The Tourist. It was pretty good. Angelina Jolie and Johnny Depp were in it. After that we ate at Chillis and then I had to go home to wake up early for the flight home.

On Tuesday I woke up at 4 am to get on a flight to Denver. There I met up with Jewel and we proceeded to down town Denver to eat at a vegetarian restaurant called Watercress. I had really good vegan buckwheat pancakes with Earth Balance and she had a really good breakfast borrito. For desert I had a rich chocolate peanut butter bar and then we drove around Downtown Denver a bit, stopping at Wax Trax. Then we drove down Colfax and I saw a few old theatres I saw many many concerts at. Brings back memories. I miss Denver. Once we got to Jewels house we saw all her rescued chickens (she has about 20 of them) and pig and parrots and cats and dogs. We talked and caught up on things. We are going to have to visit each other more often I think. I definitely need to get back up to Denver again soon. I miss that place. Before I knew it, it was time to go back to the airport to go home. Time just went by way too fast. While at the airport I had time for a couple more Fat Tires before the plane boarded. Then I was off back to reality.

Mood : happyaccomplished
Tv : Rachel Maddow
 Posted by at 11:48 am
May 132010

Ok, so I dropped Kim off at the airport this morning around 6 am. It sucked having to wake up so early and then have to go to work this afternoon. It is nice to have the house back, and now I will have to spend some time undoing what Kim did to the house (rearranging stuff). She likes to play reindeer games. It was nice having her visit and am not complaining (too much).

Tammy got into an accident yesterday pulling out from a parking lot. She was turning left and someone had stopped to let her go into the lane, while she was turning someone was speeding and went from one lane into the other and hit Tammy right where the drivers wheel is. It caused the axle to break I think. Hopefully it didn’t bend the frame. She is going to have someone look at it to see how damaged it is. Last night her foot was sore today it is her leg and she is starting to get the back pains. I told her a couple of times to see a massage therapist. I am glad she isn’t seriously hurt. It sucks that she is so far away.

I need to crash course on script writing and outlining. There are a lot of resources out there and a couple of programs to do so. Don’t know how it will apply to cooking shows, maybe I should send a blanket email to a couple of pro shows to see if they can show me how it is done. Hmm.


Mood : gassygassy
Music : Ramones
Tv : Rachel Maddow
 Posted by at 8:20 pm
Apr 212010

Kim is coming out May 4-13th. I got a call from Tammy today and they bought the plane ticket while on the phone with me. I am not quite ready financially for her to come out, but she realizes that and understands I won’t be able to take much time off for her. She still has friends out here, and she says she can take the bus too, so that is good. It might set me back a bit with tfvc, but hopefully not. I am not planning on spending a lot of cash on her, not like I will have much anyway.

Today I found a great place to do my DVDs and cook book when they happen through which is actually an Amazon back end. It is perfect because there are no setup fees and stuff. I also found a place that does ethical clothing as well. I am going to be using like 4 different companies to do my stuff for this site. Hopefully it will not get too convoluted.

I wish I could have them all go through one source, or at least one payment portal, but that would be in a dream world. I am thinking about moving my other sites off of cafepress and onto zazzle. I need to log into cafepress and see if I can download the originals, I don’t think I have them anywhere anymore. I need to search when I get home to see if I have them.

Jon Stewart at his best:

The Daily Show With Jon Stewart Mon – Thurs 11p / 10c
Bernie Goldberg Fires Back
Daily Show Full Episodes Political Humor Tea Party
Mood : happybitchy
Music : N.W.A. - Dopeman (Remix)
Tv : Countdown with Keith Olbermann
 Posted by at 9:08 pm
Apr 012010

I have had a recurring dream the last few days or so. I am at a strange airport with some friends (who I don’t know) waiting for my layover which I know is at least 6 and a half hours. Everyone decides to go their separate way and I run into a friend, (who was not a part of the original group) Jewel. It was weird running into her because she didn’t know I was going to be there (I think) and she had her own agenda and was on a long layover too. (maybe overnight or weather related or because that is how airlines like to fuck us). Anyway we are both surprised to see each other and hug and decide to hang out. We end up somewhere on those airport chairs and are resting. I am slouching on the chair and she is resting her head and chest on my shoulder, neck, and chest with her hand on my chest as well. That is all I can remember of it. I remember how nice it was.

I put my self on the scale today and I have lost nine pounds since the end of Jan. I am glad I am still on the losing track, however I was hoping to lose a bit more by now. I am still doing pretty good on everything. A little slip here and there, but that happens.

My house has felt so empty since Tammy left. I can still see and smell remnants of her being here, and I remember all her girl things (lotions, sprays, soaps) . It definitely makes me realize how lonely I am and how much I am missing out on life and a partner with having someone stay with you a week and then suddenly disappear. We aren’t even dating and there wasn’t sex involved and I am so pathetic over her visiting. I am pathetic. I don’t even know why I allow myself to get this way since I am such a gross specimen of a man. Anyway…

Another thing I can’t stop getting out of my head is how we were treated at Sublime. The hostess was snotty, same with the waitress. And when we went into the retail area of the restaurant (after I had already dropped a bill on dinner) Tammy noticed that they were both looking at us and watching us, then they continued to look and watch when we went to the bar to pay for the things we picked up which I noticed when the bartender was adding up our stuff. I put my displeasure on the Sublime fb page but it has since been removed without any response from them. So that makes things even more bitter in my mouth for them. I guess if I want to eat at an all vegan restaurant again, instead of driving 5 hours I will have to go to DC.

Mood : happylonely
Music : Ministry
 Posted by at 8:07 pm
Jan 222010

Ok so the diet has begun. Hopefully I will have enough willpower to stick with it. I need to start walking during lunch as well, but I am so far pretty weary of it since my lunch is when most of the people at work are leaving and I don’t want to get run over by them. I need to think about this, and think about alternatives. I have definitely gained weight since I have last tried this. By about 15 lbs. I need to lose at least 100 lbs to go back to my pre Brighthouse days. I uploaded the xml to google docs and then recreated the charts. Now I can put my progress on the interweb for everyone to see, so now that will be more motivation for me.

So last night when I got home I found out that Kim is also coming down to visit. She isn’t staying on the same days as Tammy, she is coming down a couple of days before, and I had to take off a couple of extra days to be able to get ready and then pick her up at the airport. I still need to think about things to do while they are here. Anyone have any ideas?

Mood : happycalm
Tv : King of the Hill
 Posted by at 10:07 pm
Jan 212010

So it is time for me to start a diet again. I am not sure how much I weigh, but I know I have gained some over the last couple of months. There are things that are hard to do anymore, and I think that my back problems have a lot to do with the excess around the belly. I have to take a close look at my diet and figure out what I need to do to try to reduce. I do know I eat a lot of carbs, so reducing my carb intake will be key. Also eating late at night is not helping either. I also need to stop buying the cookies during break. Those three things will help me. Oh, and portion control. I eat way too much food. I need to try to eat more foods that are filling instead of eating eight cups of something. I am going to start tomorrow, although today I didn’t buy the cookies or eat anything for dinner. I need to cut down a lot in my sweets consumption. That and carbs will be my biggest things. I need to figure out what I can eat when I get home and feel hungry. Maybe a no fat soup with veggies in it or something. I am looking for help and suggestions for those of you who have tackled this and kept it off. Remember I am vegan so although I can do an atkins like diet (which I will be doing anyway) the meats will be fake like meats. I need to do fruits for snacks for work I guess.

I do have an old spreadsheet I used to chart my progress years ago. I need to see if I can find that again and then see if it will port into google docs because I want to track it online, maybe if it is public it will be more motivation for me to do it. Plus Tammy is coming in March too, so maybe losing a bit of weight and getting in shape would help as well. I also need to clean house. A lot. I am running out of time and need to motivate myself to do that.

My mirror for my car came today as well as the present from my mom. I need to find the pliers to replace the mirror tomorrow morning. I need to start waking up early every day to clean and throw away.

Anyway, I need to do this. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can…

Mood : happyworried
 Posted by at 7:51 pm
Jan 012010

It has been months since my last entry. I have been neglectful. I have been lazy. Not much has been going on in my life. It consists of work and sleep and not much else. My schedule changed a couple months ago so I am working 2-11pm, so since it is in the middle of the day and such a shit schedule I go home thinking I am going to be doing stuff around the house and I end up too tired and worn out to do anything and just want to relax and fall asleep, and I don’t wake up early enough in the morning to be able to do anything either. It is really made me be like a lazy slob. I am working on changing that, but it is just a matter of trying to condition myself to wake up earlier, which I have been trying to do but it is a struggle to do the opisite of what I have been doing for years. Anyway, I need to do a refocus and regrouping.

One bit of strangeness is since I have come back from my Oklahoma vacation I have been talking to Tammy again. I am being careful and nothing is serious or anything. Right now we are in the planning stages of her coming to visit me in March when she has spring break. She is going to school and learning stuff which I am proud of. I always knew she was smart, and she is proving it to herself by getting good grades and stuff. She quit drinking and smoking but has “found god” so she substituted one addiction for another. Hopefully she will be free of that in the near future. The church is helping her out and is there for her, so that is a good thing I guess. That is people doing it not “god” though, as much as people are delusioned in that whole god will provide bs.

I have spent the last few days updating wordpress. Installed the new version and the new version of the theme. Took some things out and still have a few things to do. Otherwise it is pretty much done. I am still waiting for gallery 3 to update enough for me to move them from 2 embeded to 3 and then embed it into wordpress. I wish I was a better coder. Anyway. I need to pay more attention to my sites and do some thinking about where crazycomputing and carrotjuice needs to go. They have been long neglected and carrotjuice was overblown with forum spam. I had to kill 5000+ users and all my forums to get rid of it all.

Mood : happyaccomplished
Tv : Mythbusters
 Posted by at 9:53 pm