May 012016
 

Ok, so a lot more time that I wanted went by.. I did get a video in the can, but that is about the extent of it. I don’t know why I let my weekends slip by on me like that. I still need to put together Computron. I have a couple holes to drill still, and then assembly.

I really need to get more videos done, I have a few I need to edit as well, I have been doing them in a much slower pace than I have wanted to, all because I feel disappointed that I have had so little viewers and feedback. It seems like every project I have done has been a failure. This one included, even though it has been slightly better than others. I get a couple of likes but no shares on the posts. Very little comments in general. My biggest amount of feedback is instagram, least is facebook, and now with facebook starting to fuck with instagram timelines, I have a feeling that instagram feedback is going to drop like a rock. I just wish I got a bit more love, especially from my friends.

Speaking of friends, I lost another one. She decided her god was more important than our friendship. I needed her to go with me to the Bernie rally and even said it was important, but that didn’t phase her. I was willing to miss work for it, but to her church was more important. Really disappointing, especially since we were friends for 15 years. There are 52 weeks out of the year, she could have missed church one week. It makes me a stronger atheist, that is for sure.

This is taking me longer to write than I intended it to. I really need to get back in the habit. I really do. I guess I will get this posted because I am a loser like that.

  
Mar 042016
 

I need to start journaling again. I have been procrastinating, and have had a lot of thoughts in my head but have been too lazy to put it down. I have a lot to catch you up on, so much it can be really long, so I will probably have to put that down in several posts. I think I will start by trying to remember a dream I had last night / this morning.

I was in my house and I was hearing a lot of noises coming from outside. I looked out and in the East pasture was a bunch of people in a quarter to half circle surrounding a bunch of farm animals like sheep and goats and bulls and there were people mixed in with the animals and it seemed like some kind of disorganized rodeo. I went out to try to kick them out and I was videoing them with my phone. My dad came out of his house around the same time, and in his usual style said he would take care of this. I was standing at the barb wire fence watching and videoing them, making sure I got the faces of what I thought was the main people and the people mixed in with the animals. My dad came back towards me and I noticed he had a bunch of money with him now. I was asking them if they were going to leave and he said not to worry about it, and to go back to the house, I was even more madder now and started yelling at them to leave and that I didn’t want them there. Dad grabbed my arm and pushed me back, and I remember him trying to give me ~$20 in fives and ones, and told me that I needed to erase the videos. I told him that I am not going to erase the video, that is when the dream ended.

I am going to have to try to write more later.

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